you had the chance to be in my life. just go.

Okay. I just wanted to heave this off my chest.

There's this guy I like so much, I think I even love him. My codename for him is "Stradmore" (yeah, as in the brand of notebook, pathetic, huh?). My feelings for him had grown deeper for the last 3 years, now I could say that I'm insanely into him.

Then this friend talked to me and told me about how people in her class are picking on her. And that Stradmore guy is one of them. She's hurt because they really get to her, they say harsh words and some even backbite her.

And when I heard that from her, my heart just broke into tiny little pieces. He's just not the guy I used to know.

Well, she reasoned to me that maybe he just got involved, but I dunno, I was really hurt because it seemed to me that he has changed in a no-good way. I hate him for that.

So, I really think he's horrible. I mean, well maybe there were those times I've been horrible as well, it's just that…he's a guy and he's picking on a girl. And that girl is my friend. I dunno, I just really snap when people hurt my friends.

I really think he has changed. He has turned into someone I don't know at all. And it hurts me. Really hurts me. :(

I just needed to get that off.

- xox,

eichem